I think I am lucky, after I worked, I met a few good friends, they taught me we need to think in positive way, it helps for me, after I tried, it really works.
By the way, something interesting, they are all girls, it lets me know, there are many girls want to do something, they do not want just be a "girl", all of their character is "no excuse".
Do not find excuse for yourself, once you use excuse to explain your fault, you will never grow up, or grwo up slowly; everytime after I talked with them, I felt powerful.
So what do I need right now, I think I need "challenge", I can prove myself I can do more, but what kind of challenge do I need, I am still thinking, and I will find out someday.